In Memories of Our Friend

11/8/2009- The funeral of my friend, FY. I have to admit that it’s a painful experience. I was very calm when I first heard the news from Juliet, so calm that I don’t even show the sadness on my face. I don’t know what’s wrong. Maybe I have already expected the worst from the answer.
Few hours ago, I received a phone call from WQ. I’m at Anson that time, visiting a friend’s house. He said that a stranger had called him and asked for his parents’ number. I advised him not to interrupt in that matter. I’ve heard cases which phoned the parents and reported that their children were being kidnap, thus, claiming a large sum of ransom from the worried parents. These turn out to be a technique to cheat the money. I have a friend that faced the same problem. His mum had called the school to confirm the incident, only then did she learn that her son is safe studying in the class.
As soon as I’m home, I immediately asked if Juliet met FY. Deep inside my heart, I knew something was going on. Frankly speaking, he’s the kind of person who is straight forward. Perhaps, he didn’t even realise that he had arouse dissatisfaction among friends. I only expected minor accident or anger in gangster group. I never want it to end with my friend DYING!!!
The call was from his new number, which only a few close friends had. Once I saw the digits, I knew it was no joke. How could it possible for someone to curse himself like this? (Although before he did pretend to be sick and drew our attention to him.) He had gone to KL for a trip with his classmates early in the morning. By the time they reach there, he already felt very unwell and his friends accompanied him to a nearby clinic. Not long after the doctor subscribed the medicine, he fainted and passed away, not even quick enough to take the medicine. They said that he died at the scene, his organs had malfunction one his black out. They brought him to the hospital but it was too late. Our friend left in the cries of grief.
It’s sad when people you know become the people you knew, when you can walk right past someone like they have never been a big part of your life, how you used to be able to talk for hours and how now you can barely even able to look at them. It’s sad on how times change… Is that what life is? All living things have no choice but to accept the cruel reality? To my dearest friend, FY: We’ll pray for you and your memories will always be in our hearts, rest in peace.

感人的爱情信息 + Lessons

I combine the short stories from several friends web page. It's just something nice to share. Hopefully anyone who sees this can learn something and be more grateful to their life.

有一个美丽的小城，有一对相爱的恋人，他们每天一起看日出，去海边送夕阳，可是..一场病改变了一切...女孩病了...男孩每天都为女孩祈祷...终于有一天，神问：你愿意为她付出生命吗？男孩说：我愿意！神说：你的爱人很快醒来，你愿意化成三年的蜻蜓吗？他毫不犹豫的说：我愿意！果真...女孩奇迹般的苏醒了，男孩也变成了蜻蜓..女孩思念男孩，不停寻找，但始终找不到..直到有一天，她看见美丽的蜻蜓..她追着追着，巧遇了另一个男孩..从此他们每天一起..而蜻蜓就每天停留在女孩的肩上..不久，女孩渐渐忘了为她变成蜻蜓的男孩，与巧遇的男孩结婚了...男孩在亲友的祝福里抱着女孩出圣堂..只有蜻蜓慢飞进去..终于，它觉得自己已经是多余的了..它伤心的在神前流下了两滴冰冷的眼泪..神问：你后悔了吗？明天你就能变回自己了..蜻蜓说：不！请让我做一辈子的蜻蜓吧！（爱一个人不一定要拥有；拥有一个人却要好好爱她～你的肩上有蜻蜓吗？记得珍惜拥有..）



有位男孩很爱一位女孩，他们在一起已有三年...虽然女孩刁蛮任性，常无理取闹，但男孩都忍了下来..有天下午，女孩又无理取闹，把男孩送她的订婚戒指丢入湖中..男孩很难过，但却假装很开心地陪了女孩一夜，还把那戒指还给了女孩，女孩还不满足硬要男孩像小丑般杂耍，男孩也照做了...女孩终于满足的躺在男孩的怀里睡着了..第二天一早，女孩发现男孩不见了..原来昨天下午女孩离开后，男孩就跳入湖里寻找戒指，当男孩想上岸时，脚抽筋沉入湖底，结果... 女孩在桌上发现了一张纸条写着：希，我爱你，当我看到你把戒指丢下湖时，我真的很想恨你，但因为我太爱你了，我没办法恨你...希，对不起..当你看到这纸条时，我可能已经不在这世上了..因为我的脚有病，下水太久会抽筋，但为了你..我还是决定把戒指找回给你..希，我爱你，对不起，别生气了好吗？我不在了要好好照顾自己..女孩看着手上戴的戒指，傻了..昨晚陪她，逗她的是...女孩抱着这张纸条痛哭了一夜，也跟着跳湖自杀了..隔天，有人发现湖里有两具相拥在一起的男女尸体..
请好好珍惜眼前的一切，尤其是爱你和你爱的人..


一个男孩同时有着两个女朋友，一个认识了五年，但在一起只有一年多..这个女孩是男孩高中同学，可爱，乐观，善解人意，脾气很好也很有人缘..这个女孩非常了解男孩，男孩也习惯有女孩的陪伴..这个女孩我们叫她蓝天吧..另一个女孩和男孩一认识时就交往了，在一起也三年了..女孩是一个外表出色的女生，对自己也非常有信心..女孩非常吸引男孩，与男孩一见面就爆出爱的火花，所以也进展得很快..这个女孩我们就称她为大海吧..本来男孩的双面交往是没有任何问题的..直到有一天，大海发现了蓝天写给男孩的情信后哭嚷兼割腕要男孩跟蓝天做个了断..男孩一面安抚大海一面想法子..其实大海并不是因为爱男孩才这样做的，她只是不甘心输给一个长相比自己来得平凡的女孩..男孩突然想起他问蓝天爱不爱他的时候，蓝天只回答说：我在乎你..而问大海同一个问题时她回答说：我当然爱你啊..男孩觉得大海爱他比蓝天来得多，所以他做了决定要跟蓝天做个了断..他打电话约蓝天在咖啡厅见面，而蓝天也毫不犹豫的答应了...到了那里，男孩向蓝天提出分手，而蓝天也不为难的答应了..男孩很庆幸蓝天没为难他，但同时也很不高兴，因为蓝天根本不在乎他..男孩走出了咖啡厅便想打电话给大海告诉她这个消息，因为太过兴奋，男孩没看到向他驶过来的车子..就在男孩要被车子撞上时，他感觉有一股力量把他推开了..当男孩回过神后，便看到蓝天躺在血泊中了..男孩想要通知蓝天的家人，所以把从蓝天书包中掉出来的通讯录拿了起来，男孩突然发现躺在书包一旁的（很爱很爱你）的CD..上面写着：因为爱你所以在乎你..其实我早已知道她的存在，当你打电话约我出来的那一刻，我已看到未来的结果，不能怪你，要怪就只能怪我给你太多自由..我尊重你的选择，祝你幸福快乐..男孩早已被泪水沾湿了衣领..蓝天是真心爱他的..



蝴蝶是小白花的好朋友，它们常在月光下一起跳舞唱歌..冬天到了，寒冷的北风飑起，小白花的叶片抖了几下，落下一地白色花瓣，蝴蝶看得好心疼，它天天守着小白花，不肯离去..小白花知道冬天到了，蝴蝶必须飞到温暖的南方去，否则它会捱不过冬天，它频频催促蝴蝶高飞，但蝴蝶舍不得离小白花而去..小白花对蝴蝶说：如果你不走，我们就不再是朋友！蝴蝶只好依依不舍的含着泪展翅高飞..小白花奋力的摇着手臂对将行的朋友说：要幸福哦！说着说着，它所有的花瓣全落在小小的花盆上..小白花知道，明年春天，蝴蝶再也看不见自己，但它知道蝴蝶会幸福，会永远记住自己..小白花慢慢的垂下头，它累了..倦了..心里仍反复着那句话...
要幸福哦...



有只猫爱上了蝴蝶，可是蝴蝶喜欢老虎的勇猛..叫猫打赢老虎先，猫就去了..可是老虎一下就把猫打死了..猫死后见到上帝，上帝看到猫的诚意，给了猫８条命，它就回去找蝴蝶..蝴蝶说：你是只勇敢的猫，我想要海洋里的紫珊瑚，你能给我吗？猫不会游泳但猫想也没想就跳下去淹死了..猫看到上帝，对上帝说：我要紫珊瑚，我愿意用生命来交换..上帝就用了猫３条命来换..猫把紫珊瑚拿给了蝴蝶后，蝴蝶又说：我想看彗星划过..猫没办法，它想到了上帝，可是它知道只有死才能看到上帝，就拿刀刺了自己的心脏..见到上帝后，猫说要彗星划过今晚的天空..猫又用了另外３条命来换..蝴蝶看到了彗星，但再也见不到猫了..蝴蝶很后悔，因为它得到了证明却也得到了孤单..有时候爱一个人并不用要求太多的证明，因为你有可能失去的比得到的更多..



从前有一座城堡，有一名士兵很爱一位公主，他知道公主很难发现他的存在，所以想尽办法让公主知道他爱她..士兵就在她窗下站了很久很久..他整整为公主站了一千天，只为了等待着公主的发现..后来公主真的发现他的存在，也被士兵的真诚感动了..当她正想投入士兵的怀抱时，士兵却转身就走了..公主很伤心的问士兵为什么要走，士兵却对公主说：我等待你的爱已经在这一千天里用完了..用尽了..再也没有了..所以要好好珍惜身边爱你的人，不要等到失去了..才知道他对你有多重要..要来的总会来，不要选择去逃避..逃避只会让自己更痛苦..要想想怎样去面对，这才是对的选择..



男孩很爱女孩，把他当宝一样..下雨时，男孩总把雨伞撑在她身上，自己都湿了，却笑得很甜..女孩很感动，也爱男孩这样宠她..某天，他们散步路过工地，一块石头从上掉下..男孩抱着她并将她的身体背转过来，自己倒在地上..女孩摔在他身上，石头正好砸中女孩额头，血流出来..女孩哭着跑回家，她对他感到失望..男孩打电话给她但她因气他所以没接，女孩在房间里哭..直到妈妈告诉她，男孩被铁筋刺穿肺部，失血过多离开人世..女孩听了发了疯的跑去医院，男孩躺在病床上，女孩发现他的手紧紧握着手机，手机上面写着：亲爱的..当我看到地上的铁筋时，我已经没办法帮你挡石头了..亲爱的，痛吗？她抱着他的尸体痛哭，并想跟他说最后一句话，但却没机会了，因为一切都已经太迟了..相爱要懂得包容，爱一个人要懂得珍惜那个人，在等到失去时就已经太迟了..



听过八点半的故事吗？有个男孩和女孩在一起..女孩追求浪漫，男孩较踏实..女孩总是要男孩对她说：我爱你，可是男孩只说：永远八点半...最后女孩和男孩分手了。她找到了一个男生，也找到了她要的浪漫..可是女孩心里始终爱着男孩，想着男孩..有一天女孩无意间知道了八点半的秘密..女孩马上去找男孩，可是..他死了..分手后男孩伤心过度死了..
原来八点半０８３０在国际时间是２０３０..永远爱你..想你..



有一对很相爱的恋人，女孩有美丽的梦想，到浪漫的城市巴黎去，可是男孩很穷，一直没有办法帮女孩完成梦想，只能在她生日送她千只纸鹤..女孩突然对男孩说：我们分手吧，我认识了一位有钱公子，他要带我到巴黎去..你那么穷，跟着你一辈子都不会有那种机会..男孩受不了打击，努力做工再加上贵人的帮助，短短的３年里，已经是１家上市公司的经理，当他荣升这个位子时，他想到的第１件事，就是去向女孩炫耀..当时已经是大雨纷纷的清明节了，他来到女孩的家，坐在马赛地里，他看到两个老人撑着伞走在路上，他一眼就认出那是女孩的父母，他看见老人手上拿着香烛，他傻了..在老人的告知下，他终于明白女孩死了..女孩得了癌症，不想连累男孩才离开他，也因此病发..他恨自己，为什么没去寻找答案..他来到坟前，看见他送她的千只纸鹤在雨中纷飞..请好好珍惜身边的人，不要等到失去了才后悔，因为已经来不及了..



从前有个书生和某家小姐私定终生，在他们结婚的那天，未婚妻却嫁给了别人，痴情书生很伤心，一病不起..一个路过的僧人决定点化他..僧人摸出一面镜子给他看，书生看到茫茫大海，一名遇害的女子赤裸的躺在海滩..有一人路过，将衣服脱下给女尸盖上；不久又一人路过，他妥善地把尸体埋了..镜里景物消失，僧人解释道：那具女尸是你未婚妻的前世，你是那个为他盖上衣服的路人，她今生和你相恋，只为还你一个情...她最终要报答一生一世的是后来把她埋葬的那个人，而那个人就是她现在的丈夫..书生大悟，病也好了..
“有些人在我们生命中出现，相恋然后离开，她不是要来伤你的心，而是要还你前世的一个情...



有一个男孩很喜欢一个女孩，可是他不敢说出来，所以只好整天欺负女孩，想让女孩知道他只欺负她也就是说对她有好感...可是对于男孩的欺负，女孩觉得男孩很讨厌，老是作弄她...日子久了，女孩渐渐习惯了男生的作弄，也发觉男生的作弄很像想表达些什么，但她猜不透...有一天，男孩没去学校，女孩心急如焚，只好翘课去找男孩，女孩也明白了其实自己会习惯男孩的欺负，是因为喜欢上男孩了...去到男孩家里，看见哭成泪人的男孩妈妈，男孩妈妈说男孩在上学途中遇上了车祸，现在等男孩的爸爸赶回来载她去医院，女孩也跟着去...到了医院，医生说男孩已过世了，女孩哭着昏倒了...醒来的时候她拿出手机，看到有一封信息：“Can u be my girl？”是男孩出事之前发送的，女孩哭了，也明白男孩是因为一边写信息一边过马路才遇上车祸的...
《世上最远的距离并不是相隔两地，而是我站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你...》



有一对情侣彼此都很相爱，他们都很深爱着对方..一天，男孩带女孩出门，这个夜里，男孩超速驾驶(摩托车)..
女孩很怕的对男孩说：骑慢点，我好害怕！
男：不，这才有趣..
女：求求你，这样太吓人了..
男：好吧，那你说你爱我..
女：我爱你..可以慢下来了吧..
男：紧紧抱我一下..(女孩紧紧的抱着男孩..)
女：那你可以慢下来了吧？
男：你帮我把头盔拿下自己带上好吗？它让我感到不舒服还干扰我架驶..
女孩把头盔带着继续上路..
男:........
隔天，报纸登上...
一对情侣在夜里的一个转弯，因失控撞上建筑物男死女伤..
原来，男孩早已知道刹车器坏了，车子准失去控制..他知道如果女孩知道会很害怕，他为了不让她害怕，所以没告诉她..\
相反的，他让女孩最后一次的对他说我爱你，最后一次的被女孩抱紧..在这短短的时间里，成为了一个神话..



一位盲人除了自己的女友以外，对谁都不友善对待..他经常告诉她，要是我能看得见，我一定会娶你哟..突然有一天，有个人把眼角膜捐给他..但当他看见她后，却异常惊讶！因为她也是个盲人..她问他：你愿意娶我吗？他当下狠心的拒绝..女孩微笑着转身道：要好好保护我的眼睛哦..

Kampar a dead city?

26/7/09- It's 3.30 in the morning. I woke up in pain, rushing to the washroom. I didn't know what had happened to me. This situation has been continuing for a week. Perhaps I ate too much fruit together with the whole bottle of yogurt last time. Lol! Clear out everything in the intestines. Hahax..
I find that many of my housemates haven't sleep, so I decide to join them. University life is full of freedom. Parents are not around, so youngsters can follow their own inclination. You'll see bunches of students hanging out at the mamak stall until late in the midnight, couples dating at the lake and friends talking loudly in the garden. (Well, once in awhile I join the “night shift” group too). Kampar may be known as a small town with no entertainment, but it never lacks of the merriness a city should have.
However, there’s a strange thing. The world seems woks opposite here. Night is full of people whereas morning until 2 something, it’s hard for you to see someone come out eating, especially on weekends. There’s several times which I have tried cycling around to look for a hawker stall that open for the breakfast.
My friends said that Kampar will be a dead town during the school break. Every student will go back to their hometown and we can hardly see the shadow of a person on the street. When that happens, a lot of crime will be generated. Is it true? Can Kampar be that scary? The city of silence that has no sign of living things… I have no idea. My imagination starts coming again with the image of zombies on my head.
Anyway, today is the 1st day that I learn to play the facebook games. Thanks to FY, who I refer as the “computer expert” for teaching me. It’s a lot of fun, chatting with my housemates the whole night. I miss my hometown Penang, but at the same time I like it here too. Kampar: my 2nd home.

不可能当第二次的笨蛋

当朋友委托你办一件事,但那件事又会伤害到你自己时,你会不会为了朋友而奋不顾身地去做?明明知道冒着被出卖的危险,你又会做出怎么样的抉择?
我恨他,我恨被出卖的感觉,但我更恨我自己.原来我是笨蛋,我太多管闲事了.不,我根本没对他说过什么,大家都是朋友,我不懂该怎么开口.是我的housemate借由我电话告诉他的.个人认为那个housemate没错,她只是不想他走回她以往的痛罢了.而我把电话借给她,目的纯粹认为他有知道事实真相的权力,不想他被蒙在鼓里.
当两人之间根本没信任,中间还参杂了那么多的谎言, 双方又不肯心平气和的商讨对策,一段感情还有维持下去的理由吗? 如果彼此都觉得那么辛苦,那坚持又有什么意思,干脆分手算了,请不要拿别人来当中间人.害人害己.
其实,我又何必在乎他受不受伤害.他不会为你着想.人类都是一样的,他们只会在有事情叫你帮忙时才想起你.事情发生后一切似乎与他无关.可能连基本的忏悔也没有,更不用说是一句道歉.爱情第一.他永远关心的只是他和女友之间的感情.
我终于看懂了现实的残酷．自然界中,动物在被利用后互相残杀的例子多不胜数,而我竟然还继续陷下去.来这之前, 婆婆曾经对我说,千万别插手人家的问题,我怀疑是不是我一时神经错乱,才会被同情心蒙蔽了理智.很对不起我的housemate,把她拖下水了.
我不想那么快原谅那个对不起我的朋友，不是因为我还在气,也不是我因为他把气氛弄得很僵,只是他把我对他的信任全毁了.一个我很不容易对别人产生的信任．就因为他一句话,一个举动.一切打成碎物.我应该用回多少时间,才可以从新让别人走近我的内心世界?
突然很怀念在槟城的家人与朋友,在他们身边,我很安全.至少我有一个天使,一个为我我担忧的干哥哥,还有几位能够倾诉的对象.Haiz..超想念我在马六甲的死党.人心几时才能回到像最原始那般单纯?

Don't blame me for acting strange

About a week ago, some friends ask me why I suddenly delete all the things in my blog. Don't worry, I'm absolutely fine. Not insane. Not because of adding new members too. It just, well, I decide to start something new. New life, new school, new friends, new home. Haha! And perhaps new boyfriend too. Wahaha! just kidding. For all the friends in Penang and YR in Johor, don't worry, I'll never forget any of you. You'll always be the best on top of my list.
所谓：“ 往者不可谏，来者犹可追”, what I'm saying is to leave behind is the bad habits and sad memory. (Thx to PY and WC mentioning that to me so frequently in F2). To those who have ever hurt me, I offer forgiveness but I'll always take it as a lesson. To those whom I hurt, sorry and may your lives be blessed. Things have branched out into several paths this year, and I have crucial decision to be made.
First, education. As a former Science student, I cannot deny that I have a lot of passion in Science. But when I choose to further my studies in UTAR (Art stream), I doubt if I pick the correct choice. Most teachers encourage me to continue Science in F6, this has somehow moves me a little. It's the best way to become a doctor , isn't it? (More ridiculous, heart and brain surgeon)My dream since I'm young. Nevertheless, I started to wonder is it what I really want. Do I really like it? What do I need from that career? High salary? Highly respected authority? I don't know. Yeap, I'm kind of LOVE money. Everyone does. So what. Anyway, I begin to feel it isn't what I after when the principle tell me his story. (Thx to Mr. Khor, it's a big help). Quality of life! Yes. That's what I want. He wakes me up.
So I make up my mind to major in Accounting. I remember how I used to repel that subject. I never pass it in school exam, not above 50. It's a disgrace. No matter how many times I LOOK THROUGH the exercises, it wouldn't get close with my other grades. Bet you won't believe the result in SPM is A1. Hehe.. Paise ya, to all my classmates that wished me luck every time before my exams, (especially to angle WL), now you know why I always said it's tough but didn't tell any of you my marks. A month before SPM, I PRACTISE a lot, until I familiar with the technique. Only then did I discover, actually accounting can be very fun too. Perhaps that's what people say 兴趣是可以培养的。
I believe every career has its own successful point, just depends on the related person, whether he has the determination or not. To all students and friends that are still trapped in the mist, follow your heart and instinct, you will make your world one day.
再次感谢我的父母，朋友，师长和开解我的陌生社会人士，医生等，我想，有了你们的支持，我会学会坚强，遇到任何困难都不会轻易放弃。我想上天祈祷，希望身边的每一个人都会有美好的未来。当然，我也要！哈哈。。。